Ugh. I love Thanksgiving and Christmas but I swear these 2 days cuz so much stress and added work that I have no personal life for the rest of the year!

OMG - it's December...that feels weird!!??!

Every end of year it's scary to think of all the things I thought I might accomplish but got put off til "later" and now time is slipping by...the sand is rushing through the hourglass at what seems to be an increased velocity yet I know it's not.

My anxiety and fear simply distorts my view. Time moves at the same speed - it is us who choose to speed up or slow down our lives.

Yes...I admit it! (Sigh) I am in the theater right now...to see New Moon.

Fingers are crossed for some better acting.

I never learn

Ever since I was a little girl I've been afraid of needles. Naturally at my age (don't ask...I'm old...enough) I've had plenty of shots that didn't even hurt. It's the several that DID hurt that haunt my memories, that tighten my chest making it difficult to breathe, that make me clench my fists and look away.

I had blood work done this morning and the needle was so tiny and the nurse was very kind and gentle yet I was still holding a grudge and judging both the nurse and needle based on my prejudiced view and I acted like a little kid.

How embarassing :(

I consider it littering when someone throws something in my yard or driveway that's completely unsolicited.

Some dirty unmarked white van just drove by and threw a yellow bag at my mailbox. So now I have to go out and throw it away.

Arghh!

Do you ever feel like you just get stupid after hours of writing?

Sometimes I'll have an idea, try to write, do something stupid, then someone else points it out and I'm like "Yeah...dur!"

I had a "dur" moment last night. I don't know what I'd do without my fellow members at the AW forum.

Wow...I actually made it to the gym tonight. And I have plans to aerobicize in the morning and visit the gym again on Saturday. Woot! Woot!

So, I'm not loving this NaNo thing. I was not prepared for it and I am not even having fun with the story. But, I am still gonna plug along when I get the time. I wrote another 200 words tonight. The story is stuck and not going anywhere and when I stop and try to figure it out I ended up doing a bunch of thinking and no typing!!

New train of thought...my 9yr old cooked dinner tonight. Yes. My 9 year old daughter. She's taken some cooking classes, summer school workshops, etc. and so I let her pick out some recipes and make dinner. It was pretty cool. Kids will amaze you if you can step back and give them some breathing room. It was an asian inspired dish. Spring onion pancakes, and some kind of eggs that were dark green from all the chives and soy sauce. And we had a plum sauce for dipping. Neato!

I enjoyed my Office and 30 Rock, did some writing, did some forum posting and blogging. Now I'm gonna read for 10 minutes and try to get some sleep. I hope to get my NaNo over 3K this weekend and that's it. No big goal there.

G'nite!