You Have to Make Choices

Choosing not to decide is still a choice. Choosing to wait for more information is still a choice... to wait.

I had to make a choice earlier this month about the various commitments in my life - to remove something to keep my sanity. Anxiety and panic attacks forced me to seek professional help and through an exercise we did together I made a choice.

It was exhilerating.

Finally deciding what to remove from my schedule felt like a weight had been lifted. It was a little bit easier to breathe. This wasn't easy, mind you, but the end result was healthy. I was afraid to upset the people invoved but they told me they understood. I'm learning to accept what people say and not continue to worry about what they really think.

This choice also frees up time for me - time I can spend with the kids, which frees up other time I can now spend writing instead. Complicated but it works. I promise.

Today I was just thinking about how all day long we make choices - big and small - and how every choice we make has a consequence - big or small.

Reunited and it feels so good

I used a vacation day to take off work so I could... dare I say it? ... WRITE! I'm afraid I'll jinx it if I say it out loud. Over the holiday season I found a few hours here and there to do some editing but I can't remember the last time I did some solid writing.

I've had some time to step back away from my YA novel Morte De Alma and today I intend to do some serious damage. This book will be complete and queried in 2010. That is a goal I intend to stick to.

So I am still multi-tasking... I'm doing a Harry Potter movie marathon while I sit at the computer and type today. Movie marathons are another thing that has been stripped from my life. So today is gonna be a good day!

Fresh Start

Ahhh....a new year.

Clean slate.

Fresh start.

I love grouping things together in bundles and groups like weeks, months and years. It's an easier way to make an excuse for change. I lie to myself. I make promises too beautiful and wonderful to ever be realistic. However this doesn't keep me from making them and believing in them.

So, 2010 I salute you...I welcome you with open arms.

I will write more.
I will read more.
I will listen more.
I will learn more.
I will love more.

This will be the greatest year yet!